Today was a depressing day, and I responded by getting depressed, and taking a nap. (Depression can have the same effect as fatigue, have you noticed? If he can’t make you tired, he works you over other ways, eh?)
For one thing, I fired our realtor. (I can’t get specific- or our divorce agreement stipulates that he could sue me if I badmouth him.). And there were other pressures that were being magnified in my mind.. like a balloon mortgage deadline 2 months away - and all this time I thought our house would be sold by now.. etc..
Till, along comes my well meaning son and says to me - ‘Mom, you gotta quit that useless blog, and focus on yourself’. .. he went on ‘Nobody cares about it anyway’.
At first it sounded logical.
And for a moment I was caught up in the logic (and dissimulation) and replied to him - “Yeah, you’re right. I need to live for myself for a while’. And for a fleeting moment, I pictured myself actually having the time to go bike riding..
He walked away, and I heard a voice deep within my spirit echo.. ‘Save thyself’. ‘WO WO WO WO’..!!! Where have we heard that before?
THAT is satan’s mantra.! Save thyself!
When one hapless bloke said as much to Jesus (Matthew 16:22, 23) - he retorted with a sharp rebuke - “GET THEE BEHIND ME SATAN, THOU ART AN OFFENSE TO ME, FOR THOU SAVOUREST NOT THE THINGS WHICH BE OF GOD, BUT THOSE THAT BE OF MEN’. (Peter probably withered).
Others taunted Jesus, while he hung in exquisite pain on the tree, saying - ‘Save thyself, and come down from the cross.” (Mark 15:30)
(That had to be even more tempting than being prodded to turn stones into bread, after a period of 40 days without food.) Such is the devil. He knows just which buttons to push.
But rather than wallow in sordid self sorrows, I pulled myself together and reminded my son of something..
I reminded him that I am not doing what I do, to please men. I didn’t write the book THE TYRANNY of MASKS - Lambs to the Slaughter (2020) - to please men, and I don’t write the blog The Parallel Universe to please men either; But because the LORD has me do it.
And it MUST be pleasing the Lord God that I’m obeying Him to transmit to others what He shares with me, for, since the day in 2020 that I began to write the book, while all other gainful employment effectively ground to a halt.. HE has taken care of all of our bills to this very day. I have never before in my life, been in this position where all my bills are paid, I have no debt (save a mortgage, and I have a surplus.
His support comes in DAILY, without my slightest recruitment - as do the Kingdom secrets.
SO, after that discussion with my son - I sought out the Word of God for a cure for the depression, by picking up my phone and looking to a sermon to listen to. Of course, the Lord chose it for me.
I listened to Derek Prince speaking on ‘The Kind of Christian that Frightens satan’. (Hear the tremendous message HERE)
THE VERY FIRST VERSE THAT PRINCE QUOTED?… Haha…
And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony... Revelation 12:11
Haha. They OVERCAME HIM… HOW? By the Blood of the Lamb - >OF COURSE.
and and and.. by the word of their testimony...
by the word of their testimony...
by the word of their testimony...
That’s my blog. It’s the word of my testimony!
It’s often very personal - because I unabashedly teach others what the Lord has shown me personally, in many cases using myself to illustrate the lesson. It is the word of MY testimony. And the BOOK says, just by this - I am OVERCOMING him.
COOL!
Well, after listening to Prince speak, I returned to the task of clearing up the clutter in the house.. (We emptied the attic this week to make way for MOVING.. A future certainty.) ..as I had been doing earlier today - to make it presentable for a new realtor who will be visiting tomorrow for an interview).
SO what do you suppose I find in one of the boxes from the attic.. A book I’ve never read before and didn’t know I had.. “One Shall Chase a Thousand’.
I paused with the book in my hand, & opened it up.. Here is what my eyes rested on:
I found the place in the book, where the evangelist was talking about how God met all her needs, as long as she was doing ‘HIS’ work. :>} )
Well, Derek Prince’s tremendously inspiring sermon, and that passage in the book, might have been all the assurances I needed to stop worrying about the sale of this house, and the upcoming mortgage deadline… But look at what was ALSO in the box.. A letter from the Derek Prince ministry from 2011!.. (I’m SO glad I save some things) LOOK»
Why was I depressed today? Part of it was in realizing that for the umpteenth time, we’d be starting from square one with the house sale. Then too.. because there’s this Damoclese Sword hanging over my head with a balloon mortgage coming due.. My son didn’t help when he asked me “WHY do things have to be difficult for us?.."Why do we always have to WAIT for our answers to prayer?” (You’ve never heard that one have ye?)
Well, here is a close up from the letter, of one of the many very PERSONAL things that the Lord spoke to my heart tonight..
‘MY PLANS ARE MOVING ACCORDING TO MY SCHEDULE; AND THEY ARE RIGHT ON TIME! ‘ How much more PERSONAL can He get?
Derek Prince ended his talk about what scares satan with these words:
‘We overcome him when we testify personally to what the blood of Jesus does for us’.
So, rather than ME being scared, let it be satan!
And as long as it pleases GOD, I will continue to write these posts, with their personal testimonies - no matter who else notices.
Bless God Forever!
Victoria :>}